9:41pm “I can’t take care of you. Cause I need to take care of me” 

Things I will do to forget you.

1. Stop wearing anything that reminds me of you. The jewellery you bought me, the blazer I wore on our first date, the shoes you bought me, the book I filled up with memories of you and me, the cards you gave me for christmas & Valentines day, the cute little teddy bear I love that you gave to me on Valentines.
2. Start eating again.
3. Start sleeping again.
4. Consume stronger caffeine.
5. Quit buying bath bombs from Lush.
6. Stop texting you! I don’t see why only I should make an effort.
7. Tell you to stop saying you love me. Cause I stopped believe you the day that you left me completely.
8. Stop saying I love you back. Cause it tears me apart saying it with every bone in my body meaning it.
9. Stop commenting on your facebook status.
10. Looking through our pictures in my phone. Delete the whole album I created about us. Delete that video of us, that one where you said “I love you Clarice, never forget that.”
11. Delete photographs that reminds me of you.
12. Delete NEYO’s songs.
13. Delete “Jungle Drum” by Emiliani Torrini.
14. Stop thinking about you every morning and feeling empty.
15. Stop thinking about you at night before I go to bed. I don’t want to lust over the boy that broke my heart; and who never helped me put it back together.
16. Stop thinking about you in between day and night. I need to start being happy without you.
17. Start to go shopping for new clothes again. I’ve wore trackies, jeans, jumpers. I’ve lost confidence in me. I don’t feel confident in clothes.
18. Stop reading manga.
19. Start reading novels.
20. Start flirting and liking boys without thinking of you. Every time I start to like someone, something holds me back. And it’s you. I know it is. Because I love you, and it kills me that you don’t love me back anymore.
21. Quit thinking your gonna call me one of these nights saying you love me and you can’t live without me.
22. Start drawing.
23. Quit you.